iii wish i could fly away from here

You're reading this, I hope!

Well lately I've been mildly philosophizing.. I kinda gave up my faith in christianity for a faith in nothing. So what am I working for in life? To make a difference i guess. I just feel so caged up in my house. I mean being 17 I know I'm not 18 but I sure as hell feel like I'm 50.

I've been falling out of all I used to love to do. I miss building my beautiful vocabulary. I was once able to vociferate my feelings through a set of ostentatious words and now it's just a typhoon of jumbled ideas in my brain. Kinda like a knot you really don't feel like untangling!!

Anyway lately alot of people have been trying to get to know me for some reason. Its overwhelming. Because I'M getting to know myself right now. One minute I'm listening to Fur Elise and the next minute im listening to Kid cudi. I confuse myself!

I've been planning my future lately but i want something set in stone. Tomorrow I'm gonna go scholarship hunting and perhaps write a few essays for some. Good idea? I think so.


Love life? Idk.. Got someone in mind


I miss my best friend teresa! (not allowed to chill! her 'rents hate me cuz we snuck out!! when i slept over!!)

I wanna escape though.
Save up lots of money.
Leave.

Come back later and see who noticed i was gone~! :P

that sounded really emo but im not really feelin emo.

anyway i'm gonna write back tomorrow. :P


PCRS.