You can't break a broken heart;;*

Currently listening to : "Life as a shorty" - Fashaun

So its completely evident in my life that I put alot on my plate right now. Between balencing school and work, and even volunteer work, I know the pressure is going to break me down at some point.

Shit keeps happening in life, but seriously, I don't expect ANYONE to pity me at all because shit happens to everyone. But personally, I'm really sick of being the victim.

So yesterday I lost my wallet, after I just cashed my check. I know. WTF I don't even know where I left it, and I only took it out at ONE point in the day. I retraced my steps. Someone obviously picked it up for their selfish benefit.

How's my love life, you ask? Okay so you don't care but I'll let it out anyway. My love life is vacant. It looks like an abandoned house that you know has a story behind it. One that just sits there, the occasional hoodlum breaks in but of course they don't stay. I was talking to this guy, we hung out on the daily. I guess we were taking things really fast, but I was really feeling him. Its ironic because at first I was very doubtful of him. He seemed like a player. Shoulda gone with my instincts, huh? Well turns out "I was an idiot to think he ever liked me" his words exactly. Asshole. And when I tried to convey my feelings to him, he took it as DRAMA and blew me off!

It was all because he said we weren't sexually compatible. What the fuck is that supposed to mean? And that of course, got me a little tight, because I've never heard that in my LIFE. So I said something that I can't recollect, and he says this shit. I wrote him a poem and I felt really stupid for doing so, after all was said and done, so I lied to him and said I wrote it for another guy. Stupid move because now he thinks I lied to him about everything from the start.


So right now, I'm all FUCK love HELLO academics :/ I don't think that's very healthy for me because I'm the type of person who needs interaction. I really do think i NEED it because I need to constantly be in touch with people.

Tomorrow I'm going out somewhere with this new guy in my life, Angel. Don't get any crazy ideas, the distance is unbearable so idk. But I am pretty psyched to finally hang out with him.


Thats all she wrote for now. I'm gonna be posting alot more often, I got a new laptop babes! ;]


Thanks for listening.
1Love.